trigger

Triggered.

I saw your face for the first time in 4 years.

And my body

instantly,

immediately

reacted.

My mind couldn't catch up

while my heart beat increased,

as my stomach dropped

as my breath became desperate,

and as the color fled from my face.

I saw you.

and I was triggered.

I became panicked,

as my brain was flooded with memories

and reminded of the scars left on my body,

mind, and heart from that time, years ago.

I was not ready,

I did not want

to see you.

You do not

get to take

any more

of me

without my permission

but nonetheless,

Just as I

ran away 4 years ago,

I ran away when I saw you two nights ago at the bar.